This Weekend is Looking Empty

So I don't really have anything set in stone for this weekend. Nothing is going on that I am particularly looking forward to. I have far too many errands and chores that need done. Right now I just want to climb into bed and go to sleep. That's what I get for staying out so late last night.

Once I wake up I'll probably end up going to the see Serenity with Brian and others, although I could be persuaded to do something else. As far as for the rest of the weekend, who knows?

Lynne was saying something about going to a party up her way. She was saying something about her roommate having this shindig. I believe that's on Saturday at some point.

Not sure if Nick, my roommate, is working or has off. I imagine he'll be hanging out with his semi-new lady friend.

Venessa was saying something earlier this week about getting together and doing something.

Hung out with Jess, a new friend, a couple times in the past week. She's fun.

Matt's birthday is on Sunday. I haven't really done anything with Matt in a little while. I'd like to hang out with Matt and Jordan again soon. Possibly work on some music.

If anyones got anything good going on give me a shout.

Idealism Can Hold Us Back

Idealism is stressing me out. Perhaps my perfectionism is keeping me from getting anywhere. Sometimes you have to take a step back before you can move forward. I know this but applying it can be a real problem for me.

Being ideal at work
Increasingly doing a good job at work is stressing me out. I feel the ideal way of doing things is immured by my authority, my diminutive wage lowering my motivation, and the tools with which I have to work. Doing a good job with this stuff is definitely not taking the path of least resistance. Since I don't like complaining about my job on here I'll leave it at that.

Idealism and the ladies
In my personal life I find myself searching for an ideal women to make my girlfriend. In the meantime I have managed to hurt myself and hurt others as well. Part of me says wait it out and be alone until you find someone you are sure about. Another part of me says I should learn to better deal with people's faults. I imagine what I need to be happy is hidden somewhere in between.

Perfectionism and my music
One of the things that has kept me from accomplishing much with writing music is my desire for things to be too good. Rather than write a crappy song and learn from the experience I just get so far and lose interest because it's not good enough.

Allowing tools to hinder motivation in Photography
I keep getting discouraged in my photography because my camera just doesn't cut it in certain applications. However, I think that the best thing for me to do is grin and bear it. I need to learn to work with what I have rather some thinking some shiny new thing will allow me to achieve some new level in my work.

We are Consumming Pigs

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Spider chows down at my place

Spider
Originally uploaded by Anthony Topper.

Check this sucker out. Yummy! This was a couple of days ago but thought I'd post it up on here for everyone to see.

Probably going to walk around at Bike Night tonight and try and take some pictures.

I am Broke, I am Sick

Kind of depressing that I've been pretty broke lately. Also kind of depressing that I am now getting sick.

Work's also been really busy lately. Which is both good and bad.

Haven't been up to a whole lot lately. Same shit different day kind of stuff. Overall though I feel I've been improving slightly. I feel somewhat like I am trudging. Right now I think I just need to rest and focus on getting some rest so I don't stay sick for too long.

Yesterday was a Full Moon

It has long been speculated that Moon phases affect us somehow. Perhaps they make us crazy. I could tell that today was a full moon. I just felt different. Maybe I shouldn't buy into the hoodoo. It's not very scientific.

When I worked at the Bon Ton many moons ago one of the other clerks always said that the crazy stuff would always happen when it was a full moon.

I Need to Get Out of Here

Getting stir crazy sitting around here at home. Kind of tired but not really. I could try to go to bed but I know that won't work; I can feel it. Maybe I'll swing out to Borders and have a look around.

There are a lot of things I could be doing around here but I am unmotivated to do any of them currently.

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On My Way

On my way out the door with absolutely nothing planned. Friday's like this kind of get my goat sometimes. At the same time, however, there is that chance I will land me some place fun. A place where I can forget about my troubles.

Although what I really want seems to escape me. I'll know when I get there.

Awe! Grasshopper!

Grasshopper among flowers
Originally uploaded by Anthony Topper.

Today this big old grasshopper was hanging out up in front of my place. Thought I'd share this particular pictures. More pictures can be found on my flickr.com page. Lately I have been spying a lot of strange bugs since they cut a bunch of trees down in front of my place.