This Weekend Looks Like Fun

Tonight is Allison's party and tomorrow night is Leah's party. Both should be fun in there own regard. I need to resist the urge to be anti-social, an urge I've been having lately.

There for awhile is seemed I was meeting all sorts of new people, mostly through myspace.com. Although that seems not to be the case as much these days. I'm not having as much luck connecting with people.

I guess my long term goal is to just expand my social circle, make some connections, and meet some nice people. I am going to start looking for musicians to play with on myspace some more. Been having a hankering to get something started again with writing music.

Stream of Consciousness

The following writing is an experiment with a form of writing known as "stream of consciousness". Please refer to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stream_of_consciousness for more information.

Work is driving me nuts, not really nuts more like grapes. Can you be driven grapes? Ugh, I need to find a catharsis for all the stress I've been experiencing lately.

I'm turning into such an Internet junky. Back to work.

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The dark circles under my eyes are starting to bother me. Too much staring at the screen, too much coffee, too many cigarettes. Worry Worry Worry, I need to relax. I've been high strung lately. Relax Tony relax.

Huff. What's up with Saddam Hussein. I don't think people can really grasp how uncivilized certain parts of the world are. Look back in our history.

Sigh, back to work.

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Been kind of wishing lately. Need to stop being wishful and start doing. Motivation , the lack of, seems to be my story. I'm much better when other people are involved.

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Ugh today is choke full of problems. Web sites, Libraries, Video, the machines they are all broken, or clunking along. Computers seem so clunky here at work. Shifting gears all the time at work. It's tough. One minute someone needs help with this, another minute that. I need to get more work done, but here I am writing here. It's a solice. I think it makes me more productive to stop and spew.

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My brain is so overloaded I can't think straight. Too much too much going on in there. Coffee and smokes. Perhaps all these stimulants are giving me nerve damage. Brain revolt!

Weekend Roundup

Friday: Nick and I went out hopping from bar to bar in the downtown York Area. We actually didn't drink at all because every place we went wasn't very inspiring to have a good time.

After losing interest in this vein of activity entirely we decided we'd just cruise around in my car. Being that my car works for this kind of activity it ended up being somewhat interesting. I never really 'cruised the circuit' so to say, so the freshness of the experience probably made it more interesting than it really was.

After two times around I got bored. Gas isn't cheap these days, so the car was directed east in hopes of hitting Banana Max for a late night cocktail.

On the way, however, we encounter a car load of 'pretty girls'. Our cars exchanged smiles. After a few blocks of fooling around with them we hit a stop light. The girls' car, a second generation MX-6, started revving it's engine. I debated a nice little street race but I was thinking it would be more fun to follow them and possibly say hello. They got in front of us and flashed their four-ways. A signal of 'you have been defeated.'

My roommate and car passenger provoked me to accept the fact that they really did want to race me. At the next stop light it was on. They got off to a better start but once my Prelude got to third gear the race was easily won.

We followed the car a few blocks and it pulled into a parking lot. We chatted with the girls for a few minutes, then they invited us in. We ended up staying till about 3:30 am and then rolled home for the evening.

Saturday: Now I am not really a big drinker, but Saturday ended up being one of those days when I drank more than I should have.

Leah, an online buddy of mine, that I had never met in person prior, invited me over to a little shindig she was having. Several games of beer pong later and a two shots of Tattoo and I was drunk. I don't like getting drunk, but it happened, so what are you going to do. The night was fun.

Looking for Inspiration

Bored? Uninspired? Unfulfilled?

That could sum up what things have been for me lately. Either that or my tolerance for inactivity has gone up. I've been inactive partially because I've been sick, but that's subsiding now.

I've really been wanting to do something musical lately, but I need compatriots.

I was so uninspired to pursue activity last Friday I spent nearly an hour taking pictures of myself. This activity was obviously a result of spending too much time on myspace.

I may go to Murph's tonight provided, again, that I can find someone to tag along. An online buddy said she might be checking out the band playing and as always it's neat to meet folks I chat with online in the flesh.

Saturday from 7-9 pm is the opening of an art show at the Susquehanna Art Museum. I am going to attempt to make that. Hopefully I can find someone to tag along.

The Swirl of Thoughts

Often my mind races so fast my actions can't come close to keeping up with it. The motivation I get from the swirl of thoughts is short lived, killed out each time a new batch comes flooding in.

Many times I feel I am drowning in needed action. I need to send this in the mail. I need to go to the grocery store. I need to mop the kitchen floor.

Do you ever feel like you're just being held in a state of maintainance? I do.

One of the best feelings is that of acomplishment and progress. I don't know how much longer I can continue on on my own though. It's like that Beatles' song that goes, "I get by with a little help from my friends."

I can't imagine just 'getting by' though. I get by just fine by myself. What I'd like to do is acomplish something with a little help from my friends; that certainly wouldn't be as catchy in a song though.

Spending a good deal of time alone and being sick for three weeks has taken a toll on me mentally. Going to the doctors is like anathema to me. I am getting better. I think this sickness will be beat soon.

Over the weekend

Over the weekend I hung out with my co-worker Mike for a little on Friday. Went to a party at one of his buddy's apartment. It was a bit of a dude fest but it got me out of the house for a little bit.

Saturday was Gordy's birthday party, which was fun. Hung out with Jess on Saturday night for a little bit.

On Sunday I just relaxed all day.

Towel Warmers are Nifty

Ok, so the lastest thing to pop into my head today was that I would really like to own a towel warmer. I think this would be the an excellent addition to the bathroom during the winter.

Ahh, the thought of it makes me want to charge one to my credit card. That, however, would be irresponsible. I must ask for one for Christmas.

What do you all think about towel warmers?

YorkArts Exhibit Opening was Fun

Yesterday I arrived at YorkArts at about 6:15. Missed my buddy Matt who left at 6:00. I got to see an acquintance/online buddy, Lauren. She had a piece of art in the exhibit. I always enjoy getting to know more people.

I talked to a couple people. I wish I wasn't so ill; I probably seemed kind of out of it.

This exhibit was much better than the previous two I have been to. There was a gathering at the YorkTowne OffCenter Grill after the exhibit with complementary food & drink which was very nice.

I took a bunch of pictures throughout the night and should be flickring them really soon.

There was an after party after party at one of the artist's hotel room which would have been fun to go to but I wasn't feeling well enough for such activities.

Tuesday's grey & Wednesday too

So lately I've been feeling kind of blue. I've been sick for much longer than I should be.

Work has been stressful lately. I'm trying to stay on top of everything and do a good job. I have high expectations for myself and so do my employers.

Outside of work I think my high expectations are conflicting with my lack of focus and commitment. I need to pick and choose, and stick with something. This is hard for me to do; it's counterpart with how my brain works, but it's affecting several aspects of my life in a negative fashion.

There are so many thing that interest me. Lately I've narrowed it down to computers, writing music, and digital photography. Each of these things have great depth though and I have much to learn about.

At the same time there I've been trying to improve how I maintain my self. I need to start eating better and exercising more. This is tough since I've been sick for going on three weeks now. I hate the doctor though I really don't want to go.