I don't make enough money

One thing that has been bothering me lately about my life is the lack of funds. Ever since I bought my new car I've not had the spending money I am use too.

This has lead to some good things. I eat at home more and save money that way. This is compounded by the fact I have a lot of other things on my mind. I won't get into them.

If things don't change soon money-wise at work I am going to leave.

Although the lack of funds does have me exploring the Net. I wish I could conceptualize some type of Web site that I could make to get some extra cash flow. Maybe someday I'll run my own site and I'll be able to make all the shots. That would be nice.

I joined flickr.com

Water Garden
Originally uploaded by Anthony Topper.

As you can see if lets me most photos and blog entries right from their site.

So far I am impressed with flickr.

The whole brain roundup

Brain is going nuts

I've also been cramming my brain with all these new online profile sites. Also been coding Web sites for about 7 years now. Trying to put it all together so I can figure out how to make my millions someday. Got to stay on top of the whole online culture thing. Maybe I should start reviewing them here in this blog.

Going to try out flickr.com

I've been getting into digital photography a good bit. Currently I am using Picasa and Hello to do my photo blogging. Although I am now thinking about trying Flickr out. Flickr supports blogger and a whole lot of other blogging platforms. I'm thinking about hosting my own blog and using a PHP program called WordPress.

Blogrolling.com gold is annoying

Signed up for blogrolling.com. Found out you can't place XFN rel attributes in your links without signing up for the gold service. Ugh, back to the drawing board.

New photos posted

I posted some new photos over at http://ice5nake.deviantart.com
Check them out and let me know what you think.

Medicine Head

Feeling pretty loopy. Taking NyQuil during the daytime is always an interesting experience. Not sure how much use I'll be at work today. Got a lot of things on my mind here at work. I am sure people will be asking me questions that I will have trouble answering given my current state of mind.

All in all though being sick is no fun not matter how stoned the cold medicine makes you.

Sick as shit

Well today I am about as sick as I can remember being in awhile. Ugh ...

Flamenco dancers at the Lebanese street fair.

Philly was cool but now I'm sick

Went to a Lebanese street fair while in Philly. It was neat. The musicians were really good and the dancers were interesting.

Smoked way too many cigarettes. Thought that's why I woke up with a sore throat but now I find myself feeling sick.

Art show at YorkArts

Went to the gallery show at YorkArts yesterday. Was neat to do something artsy and for it to be here right in York. Too many times I complain about the low-brow nature of the area when really there are plenty of neat things to do around here. Too many times I talk about how dumb the population of the area seems, but actually there are tons of interesting and inteligent people.

Focusing on the negative is a slippery slope, I am going to climb out of it.

"Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart's going to cave in."
- Ricky Fitts, from American Beauty

Smoking again, debating when I should try to quit again

Those of you who know me personally know that I have started smoking again. The truth of the matter is I would like to try to quit smoking again. Not sure what the best method is. I need to mix things up again when it comes to my daily routines.

I know I am finding myself tired again. I wasn't near as tired when I had quit for a whole month. The biggest thing I face in quitting is anxiety. I got really anxious when I tried to quit before. I was also pretty restless but that wasn't as bad because I would get out and do things. Although also had a lot of trouble focusing on things.

Not sure if things will be the same the next time I try to quit. I was in a very different state of mind then than I am now.

For now I want to make an effort to cut back. I am also trying hard not to smoke while I drive. However, I just find myself smoking as soon as I get somewhere.

The urge to hesitate

Ok, so I've been dating this girl named Mary for a little of two weeks now. The time has gone by fast. Things between us have progrossed fast, too fast.

Yesterday I agreed to exclusive dating. Not sure if I am even ready for that. I think no matter what happens that things will be fine. We've been really good at being open with each other.

I love when things are clear and I can be like 'this is how it is'. I've never had that with a girl, not even with this one. Even though I like Mary, and I'm optimistic about it, I am still unsure about where to go with it and when to go there. I think too much.

I guess part of me still thinks that I should date around a little bit more. I guess part of me still isn't over Molly entirely.

I think my best course of action is just to slow life down a little. I can't have everything good right away.

Time keeps on ticking

Hotel Rwanda

Mary and I watched this movie on Sunday night. It nearly made me cry. I recommend everyone see it. Check it out

LAN Party

Had a ton of fun at the LAN party over at Tim's. Was nice not having a girl complaining about it before and after.

Surprising Call

Molly called me on Saturday which was kind of surprising. We just swapped what we've been up to.

Slacking

I feel like I have been slacking lately. Ignoring cleaning and chores a good bit too much.

My brain is a race car

I need a mental evaluation. Ok, maybe not, but it feels like that today for some reason.

Too much going through my brain. The LAN party this weekend should help me unwind a little and give me some people to talk to about the things racing through my brain.

Oh look a chicken!

I watched Fahrenheit 9/11

My overall impression of Fahrenheit 9/11 could be summed up with a few phrases: memes through speculation, memes through inconclusive and leading evidence, a little lowbrow, somewhat interesting, a good bit humerous, kinda depressing.

I can agree with the overall evilness of war as well as the disgust with elite america. I can agree with a lot of things Michael Moore is saying. However, I think it's all very subjective, and I would urge my friends not to base their opinions on Moore's message.

I suggest to better understand how people form their opinions we investigate the different types of reasoning

Monday is Satan's day

Ok so I am not dancing around fires and chanting 'Hail Lucifer' in some strange tounge. I just didn't want to get out of bed this morning.

I feel the urge to be creative but something is hindering my motivation. I want things too fast even if I know they should take time. If I start a painting I know it will take a good bit of time to finish. Every once in a while I will enter this zone where time doesn't exist and I can just get into what I am doing. I'm not like, 'I want to be done now.'

I haven't figured out methods for getting myself into this zone. I want to be able to control it. I need to figure it out so that I can be more productive.

Interestingly enough

I've been seeing this girl Mary for just a little while. I realized one of the things that is seeming strange to me about it. You see the last girl I was around, meaning Molly, wasn't admiring of her fellow man to say the least. Mary however is much more amiable to people. It strange to be around someone who isn't so jaded against people in general. I find myself questoning the fact, even though it is obvious the correct way to be is to be kind.

How strange that something so clear would become vague do to someone else's influence.

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

Neat site: GeoURL

GeoURL is a location-to-URL reverse directory, which allows you to find URLs by how close they are to a location. Find your friend's blog or the local newspaper's Web site.

It's in the early stages so don't expect too much folks but it's pretty cool. I recommend you add your site to the listing.

Work on the side

I'd like to start doing some freelance Web design or programming. If anyone happens to read this and then hears about someone who wants to make a Web site let me know.